Hoping for a better tomorrow

The title of my blog really describes how I really feel about everything right now. I’m hoping for a better tomorrow more than anything in this world. 

My Family and I went through so much this past 3 weeks, many things have changed since then and our lives would never be the same again. I think it was a wake up call not only for my Family but everyone around us as well.

I’m the type of daughter who is admittedly spoiled by my Mom, when I want something my mom tries her best to get it for me. But don’t get me wrong she does that to my brother too; She tries her best to provide us with everything we want and need even though she’s a single parent. I adore my Mom for having the courage to raise 2 children by herself, She went through so much trying to provide for us and I’m so grateful.

Back to the real story; July 26,2014 The day of the Birthday Party for me and my brother and my late Graduation party. It was a typical day we were preparing for the festivities that will happen that night, I helped my mom change the curtains in the entertainment room after eating we proceeded to clean the garage because it was dirty and smelled like dogs. After cleaning the garage my Mom said they were going to the grocery to buy things she needed for tonight, I asked if I could go and she said yes.

When we were at the Grocery store I noticed she was not herself, she kept dropping the paper she was holding. I even told her “Ma, ano ba yan! Anong nangyayari sayo” then I gave her the paper she was holding. I also noticed that she looked like she was drunk, she was even leaning on her right side. She said she was feeling a bit dizzy from going around the grocery and said she needed to buy her maintenance medication (catapres), When we got to the car and was driving home. I noticed her words were slurring, I thought she was joking but after awhile I felt so scared and nervous because she wasn’t joking at all, all her words were slurred. I even asked her “Ma, bakit ka bulol?” and she replied defensively saying “Anong bulol?”. 

Little did I know that Tita Dory was already noticing signs that Mama wasn’t okay since that morning, When she woke up at 8am and was cooking she kept dropping the spatula she was holding. Then Tita Dory asked what was happening to her but she just kept laughing and saying it was nothing and she was fine. When they were eating she also kept dropping the spoon she was holding and when she was asked what she feeling, she just laughed again and said she was fine. In the car I recalled the signs of stroke I once read at my newsfeed on Facebook. Tita Dory already changed our route to go to Medical city without my mom knowing but the traffic was terrible and my Mom noticed where we were going and protested on going home because she said we needed to prepare for tonight. I just let her have her way but I had a plan in my head when we are close to St. Therese, I would corner her and get mad at her and try to urge her to get her bp checked. 

When my plan worked and we got to St. Therese she didn't protest and we went inside the emergency room, She got her Blood pressure checked and she was escorted inside the ER to rest, lie down and relax. The whole time this was happening I had a bad feeling about everything and my heart was racing, but in my head I have to be strong and think clearly. The Doctor said she needed someone to talk to and I presented, She told me that my Mom's BP was at 280/100 and it was already what they call a Evolving Stroke.