I'm scared and I don't know what to do. There's so many things I wanna tell you but I can't since it might and will hurt you.
Ever since they haven't been supportive of everything I do. My choice of course in college, they questioned me if that was the course I really wanted, They think that it will not generate the income I needed for my future. They think that it might be not what I really wanted. But it is what I want and even though sometimes I want to give up on it, I try my best to get through it.
I just wish they will all be supportive as much as they support my cousin now. He's just graduating High School and they support him. But with me it's like they don't even know what Year I'm in and what I'm taking cause I think they try to forget.
And now with my boyfriend. I didn't want to tell them first I waited till my debut to tell them about him but they left early, not even finishing the performance of my band. That hurt me a lot. They didn't finish the program at all :((
My plan was to formally introduce them to my boyfriend after the party but little did I know they already knew that he might be and is my boyfriend because of a friend who told my cousin (who will graduate HS). I wish they waited and not snooped around. They've been always like that always trying to intrude with everything I do or my family does.
But sometimes I just wish they would just stop. I mean he's a good guy and all, my boyfriend. I wish they won't put hard judgement on him. I wish they had more time to get to know him. Some of my relatives though approve of him because they can see how in-love we are and how caring he is at the party during Christmas.
Well secretly I'm dying inside because I want him to go with us to Boracay and my Mother told my relatives about my plans. And they (relatives) told me that, that would be our "family time" and bringing him would distract me from family time and thus my family won't know me better. But they know me, so well actually because I've always been open about everything.
Every time I come home from school I tell them about my day, EVERYTHING that happened that day. When I have problems I tell them and I ask for advice. I see them everyday and I try as much as possible to make family time with them. So bringing him won't actually ruin family time. I want them to get to know him more and spend time with him also.
With my boyfriend, We rarely see each other because we study at different Universities plus our schedules are somewhat far apart from each other. We rarely go out, We don't chat because he rarely goes online and if he does its for school work. Talking on the phone? we do that but sometimes it's only goodnight calls. I was hoping that this summer we will get to spend more time with each other.
But sadly he can't go with us to tagaytay on my Mom's birthday because he already had plans with his family and I was hoping that Boracay trip would be the alternative. But with all the intrusions with relatives, I think it won't happen and I'm secretly dying inside because I wanted him and my family there, having fun.
