Sometimes I think too much.

Do you get those times when you think to much?

I do and when that happens I end up doing something I regret. I think of so many things but mostly I think about my future and him mostly.

My future, I’m quite not sure if the path I’m going really is the one that is meant for me and to tell you the truth I don’t even know if this is what I want. But they say that if you don’t see yourself doing what your are doing right now in your future then It’s not meant for you. But I do see myself in the music business but not behind it but more as a performer.

Its just the start of 3rd term and it’s bearing down on me literally, I’m already lagging on Fundamentals of Music 3. It’s really hard and I can’t cope up, I’m pressured to do my best and that’s why I keep making mistakes. I just gotta know how to relax or something. If you know any techniques on how to relax other than breathing in and out evenly please message me. Seriously please do.

I really don’t see myself doing any other track other than Music, I do sometimes in Culinary but I’m planning to take that up after Music Prod. I just want to have that driving force that most of my batchmates have in terms of studying our Major Subjects. I want to great at this even better. I want to prove that I can do it. I really wanna finish this course on time even if we’re already 1 year late because of failing Fundamentals of Music 1.

About Him, I’m just scared cause sometimes I lose, like sometimes I get lazy to text even forget to reply to him most of the time, since I’m busy with school and everything else in between. Its just that I’m so focused on school and preparing for my ambitious Anniversary surprise that will hopefully go according as planned. I’m just scared that he might think I’m taking him for granted or something. And the fact that my Guy friend always tease me and put ideas in my head that my boyfriends straying away. Argh Frustrating, But I trust him though, I Just don’t trust the girls that like-like him.

Right now I just want to relax my mind and just enjoy the process of everything.