I visited him in the hospital today, he got confined last night. The reason still quite unknown, until now the doctors don't know what happening to him. :((
It was quite nerve wrecking to visit him since this will be the first time My Mom will meet his Mom and I'm nervous that something might slip out (I mean there are some things his mom doesn't know and same goes for my mom) So before we went to the hospital we bought a basket of fruits consisting of: 3 Apples, 3 Pears, Bananas and Grapes. I was brought up and taught that if you go visit someone bring something, I don't know why but just bring something. Not necessarily every time but yeah you get the point so moving on.
So when we were walking in the hospital going to his room, I kept telling my mom to be quite and be nice. It seems though that our roles are reversed sometimes, actually most of the time but oh well. So when we got there My mom knocked on the door and his brother opened the door and asked us to come in then I saw him. When I saw him it just broke my heart... :(( He looks so tired and weak. And it just hurts me seeing him this ways like I can't do anything to make him feel better. He's pushing himself to the limit with studying and everything. I swear after next week when he's okay or sometime in the break I'll treat him with relaxing time and bonding. But as of now the only thing I can do is... pray and just pray.
You might say that it's so shallow for me to realize and blog about this but for me it's not. I Love how I can explain how I feel to everyone who knows me and who don't. Some get to relate and some not but those who don't someday will feel the same though but in a different way than what I just experienced.
Going back... When I saw him that's when I realized that he's my weakness, someone who I can't bear losing, someone who I can't really live without. You might say its too early for you to say that... but no this is really how I feel, I feel like he's really the one I've been waiting for, the one who I've been praying for. I just don't want him like that, I wanted to do something if only it was possible but it was not. I wanted to make him feel better, I wanted him to be okay. I don't want anything bad happening to him... that's all.
