I was scared because that moment was different and it wasn't normal for us. Walking side by side not at all talking to each other, even though there were people around us walking and chatting, the air was eerie, my hands were cold and your hugs were weird. We were both silent waiting for someone to break the ice. Honestly, I didn't know what to say at all and thoughts were rushing through my head...
What if he gets fed up of me,What if he finds someone else better than me, What if, What if...
So many What if's and every what if is killing me. I honestly am scared of losing him, I'm scared of waking up knowing he's happy with someone else. I'm scared that all of our dreams and hopes of Forever is gone... I've witnessed Love die so many times in-front of me and I can't deny that I've thought of those things happening to us. I'm scared, I'm scared. I don't want to cry anymore and I don't want someone walking away from me and me not doing anything to stop you from walking away. I'm scared of me doing something stupid once again, I'm scared of making mistakes that will eventually break your patience. I'm scared...
Hindi ko na alam gagawin ko pag nawala ka sakin, It's like like taking the air I breath out of my life out of my system and I will eventually die -Steph
I've been on this road before of not knowing what to do, if you let someone you loved walkaway just like that. Few times I've let this happen to me, let the ones I love walkaway and me not doing anything to stop them because my mentality that time is that why try to keep them here if they're not happy with me. But now can I be selfish enough to make him stay if ever that happens?? Selfish enough to ask him can we work this out.... please... I trust our relationship, our trust, our love and God throughout this relationship.
