I really don't like counting it but I just can't forget that moment when you asked me to be your girlfriend. That I would say was one of the most unforgettable moments in my life, unbelievable how you could muster up the courage to ask me then and there hahahhaha. I still can’t believe it; I can’t still believe the fact that I have you...
I never imagined having someone like you let alone having a boyfriend in my life. I always thought I would end up in the convent or something because I wasn’t sure that I could handle a relationship and I wasn’t confident that I would find someone who would like me nor love me. But I was wrong totally wrong, I thought I couldn’t handle it but I can, I wouldn’t find someone but look I have you!
Most people say that everything between us was so fast. I would agree but they don’t really know the back story. I met you when I was in my most down state, I was wreck hahahhaha. I never really knew that you were in that state too, recovering. After our first meeting, I was really intrigued because when I first met you, you kept talking to me and I wasn’t saying anything at all, just blank stares since I didn’t have any voice. In my head I was like “Bat kaya ang friendly niya? He’s cute ah. Ask Kenneth about this guy.” Yeah I know Weird. It was just weird when I first met you instant connection like I was comfortable in telling you everything about my life. Then after a few days we started texting and talking on the phone for hours I kept venting about how I liked some guy and you listened and shared stories about your love life as well.
Before we learned each other’s good side, we learned each other’s bad side and that is what makes me love you more. Because even though you knew about what “kabaliwan” I did, you accepted me just the way I am and you never loved me any less.
Honestly, I was scared; I was scared to like you because maybe I was just traumatized. For days I kept holding back what I felt for you since I wanted to be sure that I’m not just rebounding or whatever. I wanted to be sure that I like you because I like you and not because of other reasons. For nights I kept thinking sorting out feelings, realizing that the guy before wasn’t the one I really like.
From the day you told me what happened with your past I didn’t want to commit the same mistakes that she did, I wanted to make you happy and I wanted to be deserving of your affections. Even though I was scared like hell when I told you I loved you, I was happy actually extremely happy because I know for myself that what I was feeling wasn’t just love it was something more.
Until now I can’t explain how I feel, normally with other relationships by this time the feeling wasn’t as strong as the first month. But What I feel now is much greater than what I felt before and I never felt really this happy! I don’t care what other people think or say, I just know that I really have found someone that I can proudly say is someone I want to share every moment with and I could say that every single day. I LOVE YOU, FOREVER AND ALWAYS STEPHEN JOSHUA AMPON OJEDA JR.!!!!!
