6 hours of talking, ranting and venting. I understand now.

It's been 6 days since I last saw him and to tell you the truth I'm MISSING him so much.

Last night, me, him and our friend we're talking (Three-way call) Our friend was ranting about his girl, his girl did something that was really out of the line, it was the same mistake I did in our first few days of being together.

When our friend was telling the story of what happened, I felt so ashamed, I felt so bad. You're hearing it from a guy's perspective of how it felt and to think that he felt that way when I told him, it's unbearable. Our friend was really mad and he was asking Steph (my boyfriend) and me what to do on this situation.

The girl said she did that because he missed him. Our friend was asking
Steph if he should believe the reason that the girl gave. That was the SAME reason why I did those stupid things. So I waited for his answer, I kept quiet.

Friend: Should I believe her reason?

Steph: I don't know but I believed the girl

Friend: Why?

Steph: Since I know the girl. You'll know If she's honest with you. It really depends on the girl, I know the girl and She's honest so I believed her. You know her the most, You should know.

Friend: How did that go?

Steph: We're okay now, Very okay.

When I heard him say that.... I didn't know what to say. I was shocked. I honestly am still guilty for what happened and I admit that I was wrong. I shouldn't have done that to him. I shouldn't let him feel that way after everything he's been through. I hated myself for that.

I didn't say anything, They were still talking and he was giving advice to him. I just listened taking notes of the smallest of things. I wanted to know what is right or wrong in his perspective and from what I'm hearing he's advices to our friend really is right.

Some of his basis for his advices is our relationship, how it works and how we are. Hearing from him what he's learned from our relationship really makes me smile. He trusts me and Loves me.

I Love Him for being there when I was really down, I thank him for all of the efforts he's made. I understand now, I understand why I love him so much.